By: Casey Fitzsimmons//
Demi Lovato has lived a lot of life in the past 25 years, and she just gave us a deeper look at what her life has been like in her new YouTube Original documentary. “Simply Complicated,” an hour and 18-minute long documentary, brings us into Demi’s life in the most honest and vulnerable way. Directed by Hannah Lux Davis and filmed over a 7-month span, Demi is seen opening up to the world about her dark childhood, her struggle with addiction, and her sexuality in a very intimate way. Here are four of the most jaw-dropping moments from “Simply Complicated”:
1. She was suicidal at a young age
As a child, Demi was participating in beauty pageants with her sister, Dallas. Also at just seven years old, Demi had an unhealthy fascination with death. She wondered what having a funeral would be like, and she silently battled with depression, even back then. She said, “I never knew why I would think so darkly, and it took me a long time to actually figure out what was going on.”
2. She was 17 when she tried cocaine for the first time
“My first time doing coke, I was 17 working on Disney Channel and I was with a couple of friends and they introduced me to it. I was scared because my mom always told me that your heart could just burst if you do it, but I did it anyways and I loved it. I felt out of control with the coke the first time that I did it,” she explained.
When talking about her estranged, late father, she revealed that he was an alcoholic and an addict, which put a strain on their relationship. She confessed that she always searched for what he found in drugs and alcohol because “it fulfilled him and he chose that over a family.”
3. The importance of March 15, 2012
March 15, 2012 is the anniversary of Demi’s sobriety. Demi talks about the last time she drank, which was while she was in Austin, Texas. She invited two random people to her hotel room, got drunk until it was time to get on a flight, threw up in the back of the car service all the way to the airport to perform “Give Your Heart a Break” on American Idol, and ultimately performed while completely hungover. Her manager, Phil McIntyre, rallied up her entire team, from her business manager to her attorneys, to say that if Phil walks away from Demi, they all walk away from Demi, which Phil described as “the showdown of all showdowns”.
Sober coach and founder of CAST Centers, Mike Bayer, asked Demi for her cell phone, and Demi smashed it and dunked it in water. Phil still has that cell phone, which was the gateway to everything standing in the way of Demi’s sobriety. From that moment on, Demi has been sober, and will forever pride herself on that.
4. She will always love Wilmer Valderrama
Demi was 17 when she first met Wilmer Valderrama on the set of the Voto Latino 2010 Census shoot at Valderrama’s house, and according to her, it was love at first sight. She said, “We connected on a level that I’ve never connected with anybody before.” They began dating after she turned 18 and had a 6 year on-again, off-again relationship. Last June, they decided they are better off as friends and broke off their relationship, but she made it clear that their break up had nothing to do with falling out of love. She said, “I’ve never loved anybody like I’ve loved Wilmer. And I still love Wilmer.”
Watch the full documentary below: